a Future Solider. I’ve sweared in and everything! It was a busy day, but all worth it once I was swearing in. Up a 2 a.m. in the morning just to go down and get everything done. It isn’t hitting me yet, but it probably will once I’m about to leave (which is soon). Actually, early in the morning it hit me a little. I left with my recruiter, after my parents came with me early in the morning. I looked back and my parents went the opposite way than me. Then I thought, “Once I leave I wont be seeing them for months”. That really hurt and me got me scared. I love being with my parents and I do my best to spend as much time with them. They are being very supportive. I am so blessed. I have God with me at all times. Honestly, what more can I ask for? I also have someone amazing in my life which I’m so greatful for. Great family also! I am truly blessed.
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I can’t wait to wake up and go for a run! Although tomorrow is my rest day but I forgot how much I loved running till I ran yesterday! I haven’t ran for a week till then! I have to wake up super early tomorrow :P So I would be able take a nice long run and still have to time to get ready for class. Running will be the time where I don’t have to think so much. One of the reasons why I’m excited >.<
What I tend to be doing at night is light some candles and find time for myself. If it’s either listening to music, writing, or reading a book. I usually stick to writing and music because I haven’t really done that lately. So much is going on that I sometimes lose myself and don’t make time for things that keep me calm. I have a clue what I’m doing now. Where exactly I’m going. Where I will be in a year. What to do. What to fight for. It was great to have a Summer break, but now it’s time for business. Time for life.
One day everything is fine, then all of a sudden the world turns itself upside down. The things you believed once, is the main thing you question. What’s going on? I don’t get it.
I have two options to choose. Both can either be really good if its the out come I want and both can end in a complete mess. I usually always think, “Will I regret this when I get older?” and usually that question helps me off the bat! This time it’s different. I remember the other part of me that loves taking risk because you can learn something really good out of it and the most scariest can be the most thrilling. Hopefully you see my predicament. I have no clue what to do. I’ve wasted so much time already…so I have less time to think. I thought I made my final decision, but I realized I never really had time to think about it. I have now, and I don’t know which side to choose.
Does this make sense? Probably not, but it feels good to get this off my chest.
